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| Kay, the guy I like never anwsered. Over him
anyways. Pssh.. Men... Oh well. Yeah, the guy I liked, who thought
liked me back over summer emailed me recently. Thought he'd been
ignoring me for a while. Heh.. Who knows whats happening now.
Everything's all confusing, with friends, guys, family and stuff. My
mom's making me see a therapist. Maybe I need it. It might help, you
never know. And this week is Spirit Week. Woohoo! Homecoming Saturday.
We're going cosmic bowling then out to dinner, it should be fun. Hehe.
There's just been so much on my mind lately.
Kinda just had a breakdown during practice today. Just shutdown. But
I'm better now. Took a shower, talked to my best bud about it. Always
feels good to let stuff out, to me it does at least.
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| Same old, same old. lol.. I feel shittay today. Had band pictures
taken. Gotta sore throat, and stuffy nose. Braces are a pain in the
ass! But there are a few things good about this week, at least. Having
my buds over today for the night. And... On Monday I get to see -him-!
Yeah... I'm getting obsessive again over a guy I barely know 
But oh well! Tried asking him out, nothing from him yet. And I feel
like I messed up by writing 'will you go out with me?' in a -note-...
 oh well... Nothing will happen prolly. Guess that's life for
ya.Well, think I've rambled enough for now lol. Prolly don't wanna read
anymore, anyways.
Toodles, Peace out, Make love not war! Peace Frog Rulez!
-Casey
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| Confidence
Where did it all go?
Suddenly it all left and I feel so low.
I tell myself it will be alright,
But constantly I'm in a battle.
Hurting, crying, losing the fight.
On life, on family, on boys, on friends.
Will this lonely feeling ever end?
I find myself crying day in and day out.
Why don't I know what confidence is all about?
I seem to have everything I need,
But obviously something is missing.
Am I just a bad seed?
Everyone tells me not to follow but to lead.
Every step I seem to trip.
Every feeling of confidence in me slips.
I don't know what I did to deserve this,
But I know out of everything I've lost in life,
My confidence is what I dearly miss. | | |
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Why am I crying?
Feelings
of sadness,
That won't go away,
Each and every hour,
Each and every day.
Hate worthless feelings,
That well up inside.
Dare not speak them,
I don't yet confide.
My day starts with crying,
My night ends so too.
Would somebody tell me,
What I should do.
It's happiness I seek,
But still have not found.
Just want to be free,
But feel like I'm bound.
Put on that smile,
For everyone to see,
So they will be comfortable,
Being around me.
Can't give up living,
But feel like I'm dying.
Too much to live for,
So why am I crying?
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| Like the perfect ending
It wont be too long
Till everything I've ruined has seen me gone.
In time,
I pray you'll forgive me.
Now you know the girl I am,
Can you forgive me?
I fall...
Like the sands of time,
Like some broken rhyme,
At feet no longer there.
You'll always mean so much to me.
And there's no reply...
And there's no reply..
You'll never know how much you meant to me...
If only I could call the rain,
to melt away the pain you feel
I would.
You gave yourself to me and showed me what the truth could be.
For that I say thank you.
This was my life
It never made much sense to me.
You in my life..
It all meant so much more
To me.
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